When will things get normal?

As you can tell from the title things aren't what we were expecting this New Year. Just a month ago we were fully expectin that we would be done with all this crap. But I guess that just shows life is full of the unexpected. Paula's regular oncologist saw on here last scan some things in the brain membrane that she didn't like so they did some more tests and found that she does have some atypical cells in here spinal fluid. She didn't want to start anything until after she had talked with Paula's neuro oncologist which we met with today and he stated there is new growth in her brain. He did say they plan on doing radiation on it but as for the other crap he wants to take it to the tumor board and see what everyone else thinks should be done.
I also have had a realization about my voluntary demotion in the New jail Sgt's are going to have their schedules more restrictive and not a lot of leniency such as being able to break away without any issues. I thought when I did I was doing it more for the kids being able to spend more time with them at night and have a "normal" life but the more we find out about Paula and what possible treatments there can be I think that the move was inspired no I know it was inspired. I will be able to adjust my schedule to fit her schedule. It has helped me relearn we aren't always in control Heavenly Father helps even when we don't ask or expect it.