Complaint Session

Sorry folks this is going to be a big complaint session for me so if you don't want to hear it I stronglyh suggest that you stop reading now. That means now not in a few lines. THOSE who DON'T want TO hear THIS stop READING now.


I have began to wonder how much crap one family is meant to take. Our problems started years ago but really started to get bad when our youngest was born just over three years ago. She was born and had some serious breathing problems. So bad that for about 1-2 hrs she was given CPR until the NICU team from Primary Childrens could get there and put her on a ventilator, she was on that for 10 days and oxygen for about a month after that crashing once while on oxygen but also recovering real well. A couple months later my son was sitting in Paula's lap and jerked backwards towards her head we thought at first that he was playing until you could see him trembling and shaking and turning blue it lasted about a minute give or take it seemed like forever for us, this was just the start of another wonderful medical issue siezure disorder, they tried to get medicated but the siezures just kept getting worse as the days/weeks went by it got so bad that he was two to three gran maul siezures a day so his Dr decided to hospitalize him until he got stable. He was in Primary Childrens for 7 days try keeping a 3 year old boy who is otherwise healthy in the room with not a whole hell of a lot to do. I spent the majority of the time by his side. After they finally got him stablized on his medications he has not had a visible siezure since. We went about a year after that until I broke my collar bone no big deal out 6 weeks and can't play Turkey bowl anymore Paula's rules. Then we have had minor things with the kids no really big things for another year or so when Paula was diagnosed and we have been dealing with that since. We have found over the last three years that problems seem to come up as soon as a medical bill is paid off, so we have vowed to leave a penny on our balance just so no more crap can't come up, we have also noticed that something usually comes up as soon as our savings account starts to get up. That brings me to the current frustration we have 1k in savings and feeling good about stuff this is actual savings that isn't involved with taxes, those went to medical bills, so I was feeling pretty good. Then the van goes screw your savings cough cough good night and the transmission breaks. from several people I have talked to it sounds as though the clutch inside is gone. Repair costs anywhere from $1,300-2,600 yeah that is what I said the value of the car is only worth 2400 in mint condition trust me after four kids running through it and many many trips they have pretty well trashed the inside so I would guess it is worth 1500 if I am lucky so it makes it hard. Ohwell $2600 into it and we have a good vehicle back rather than owe 20k ya know. Well i think that the worse thing about this is the fact that all this comes after good news for Paula, i just wonder why can't we enjoy this excitement and joy? I have had someone tell me that we are so blessed and it was all I could do not to laugh cause that is the farthest thing I can think of, yes we have been blessed with family and freinds who are real supportive but to tell me right after my van is towed away and knowing I am looking at a pretty hefty bill to get it back they say it. My feelings right now are not of blessings but of utter and complete contempt how much crap can my family take, I am done this crap I don;t want my family to keep getting this crap brought on them. i no longer look forward tot he end of one road for fear of what is coming next. Let me deal with this problem and only this problem. Hopefully those of you who have made it through this session will understand and those who didn't well good for them. This is my little vent place sometimes and hopefully it doesn't affect you in a negative manner.